i know i haven't mentioned it much on here.
but last summer was rough for me.
i wanted so badly to enjoy my time with my kiddos. but i was overwhelmed.
soccer, swimming, vbs, plus i was taking classes, caring for a baby, dealing with a toddler with sleep apnea.
and then there was postpartum hormones. when jake was born, throughout my maternity leave and during his first few months i had escaped the really strong postpartum feels. i honestly thought i was out of the woods. but when jake was about six months old it hit. i had to work my way through some anxiety and blue moods. there were days of just going through the motions.
just surviving.
it was a rough summer.
but even so we made it through. and while i look back and definitely remember how hard it was there was also a lot of good. tim definitely helped me get through. to keep moving forward. he took control when i needed him the most.
as this summer approached i started having anxiety.
i mean what if it wasn't hormones and baby blues.
what if it was just me being overwhelmed by being home during the summer???
i didn't want to spend another summer in survival mode.
i really questioned myself. i was nervous it was going to hit again.
i prayed and prayed and prayed that i could handle it. that i could just be and enjoy this summer.
we have weighed out every choice. prayed for what would be the best.
and this summer has been so redeeming.
so relaxing.
so calm.
so enjoyable.
it is amazing what can happen when you let go.
i handed it over to God and i pray everyday to soak it all in.
to follow His plan.
to enjoy.
